..Why..

Whathehell -.-

2010-10-15T23:49:00.001-07:00

What?!! 16th october?? And i left like innie minnie Bo Monei. Never ending shopping list. I wish i could be billionare so freaking bad!!:) hahaha.. -.- ok lame.boring.mode.activated.

SCraP -.-

2010-10-12T01:16:00.001-07:00

Forget about holiday. No money = No honeymoon

My & His Age Calculator

2009-07-23T09:04:00.000-07:00

Ewul Amwie was born on a Saturday and since his birthday...
His been living for 22 years.
His been living for 266 months.
His been living for 8,104 days.
His been living for 194,508 hours.
His been living for 11,670,483 minutes.
His been living for 700,229,005 seconds.
His heart has beaten more than 816,933,810 times!

Aldy Eanna was born on a Wednesday and since my birthday...
I've been living for 21 years.
I've been living for 254 months.
I've been living for 7,750 days.
I've been living for 186,012 hours.
I've been living for 11,160,722 minutes.
I've been living for 669,643,350 seconds.
My heart has beaten more than 781,250,540 times!

critical moment..

2009-06-27T07:11:00.000-07:00

Everything came crashing together after when the letter of appt came.
i was happy for the news i had. BUT!! it came in the wrong month.......
why must be june??!! nGehh!!
*bonus*
*annual leave*
*holiday*
*license*
it was all well planned.
While tis apportunity will come only once.
Sucky feeling sia ):

So much of disccusion with my friends and family, ive decide to move on to my new career. 2 more weeks!!
Now the most tensing is having to go thru the exit interview and having to answer the reason of leaving. Urgh!!
Talking to my manager is already a pressure for me, and now i need to get thru my assitance DIRECTOR. Cibai lahh.

i got two more days to think. * tink yana!! THINK!!*
think all the reason that u be said and prepare to get back negative comment.
for shure LAH! hmph!

"money come, money go".

Stupid policy!!!!!!!!!

Loving you was my favourite mistake.

2009-05-15T12:35:00.000-07:00

In life, love is never planned nor does it happen for a reason.
But when love is real its become our plan for life and our reason to LIVE.
Is just that sometimes i feel life is just a dream coz i always wake up to the truth
and sometimes it ended up to be sucky. ):
I cant open my heart and not have some hurt coz this is all human experience.
Even if its my love of my life and i have wonderful year together.
There will always be something that will hurt me. Love takes courage.
So.. be courageous!!

If you dont know, den ask me.
if you dont agree, den argue with me.
if you dont like, den say it to me.
BUT dont keep silent and judge me with HER.

I know its hard to tell ur mind to stop loving someone but your heart still does.
Eventhough how much i shower u with love [ im not shure if it shows, that i love you more than u ever know.]

Some say love is just magic~
But isnt it magic just an illusion?

piece of shit.

2009-05-14T06:07:00.000-07:00

* All i can do is smile, move on with the day and pretend its okay.

*Its hurt so much to be alone, and know that he isnt.

*I just keep falling for the one who can never catch me.

*Love start with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tears.

*Three words " You Broke Me"

May.

2009-05-07T07:50:00.000-07:00

hello earthlings.
May the month that blessed with happiness.
My only brother got married on the 3rd May 2009.
My 21st birthday ~ 4 may 2009
Boyfriend 22nd birthday ~ 16 may 2009
Our FIRST year anniversary on the month of May.
(:

now.
updates!!

its abit odd when Fadly moved out of the house. no more stupid noises from him. but that make the house so fucking lively. w/o him at home makes me misses him so much. i jus miss the childhood days. how we often fought and shout at each other. i knew mom is so sad to see her only son stepping out of this house and now his having his own responsiblity and family. im just here to pray that everything goes perfectly normal in my family.

im still waiting patiently for the SPF letter. they only gave a letter stated that my application is still being processed. hopefully everything is okay. *crossing finger*

My practical 8 is still hanging in the air. floating to noowhere. tsk!
i need to start topping up and get over and done wif tis shit. its been three years sia. brrh! ~yana mcm paham. !!

lastly, I LOVE KHAIRUL AMRI.
(:

Happy?

2009-03-20T18:25:00.000-07:00

Its been awhile i did updating...
if i were to say im busy, BEDEK uhhh...
im just to lazy larhh ~hahaha!!
so far, bits doing fine ~ bits doing better ~ and the rest are the same.

:)Boyfriend.Work.Collegues.Friends(:

Although the childish quarell we had. how irritating you or me can be.
You will always give in for me. You wont fail to make me smile , laugh and u will never make me fall!!*giggles* only you and me know!! *winks*
XOXO

Work as pernormal the SAME.
admission.elective.operation.callbells.parameters.iv drips.sponging.URINE.changing diapers. (that is what i did almost everyday)
Sometimes i do think that im just the same as a maid = slaves.
you noe Y!!?
patients for example the one who can ambulate just taking advantage.
"Do this! Do that!"
and the staff nurses have this habit to just instruct us to do almost everything.
"Yana, boleh tolong nie tak?, boleh tolong tu tak?!"
CB. y cant you stop ur report for awhile n do it. urgh.
Sometime i do have this thoughts; untill when will i do this kind of job??
when i look at my SEN, i pity myself if i grow old, will i become the same like her?
@#$%^.

SO i did some searching.
and i randomly applied SPF.
(:
so witing time, almost a month and i get shortlisted!!
yeaa..!! BUT........
i got so many questions left unanswered.
i got support from my dad , BF , frens to go for the interview.
i appreciate it alot but.....
my physical looks and stamina make me hold back.
im a low self-esteem person and i get dissappointed easily when come to the things i do want badly and i didnt get it.

i had this chance, shall i grab it? or just continue with my nursing journey.
):

G.I.R.L.S

2009-02-27T08:12:00.000-08:00

it was a random plan today.
Me, ayesha,aren and iqin thought of have a small picnic but we ended up shopping at TM.
Although it was tiring coz we spent our time nearly 6 hours to shop but its worth it. (:
i've been thinking for quite awhile whether to do something with my hair.
so with the support from them, i did something to my hair.
*giggles*
ewul doesnt know about this. MATI AKU.
heh.

Its been a long tyme we did go out for some shopping therapy and a proper meal.
(: and i do hope this wont be the last.

Meeting ewul tmr morning.
picking him up near his work place.
~im being a good GF niee.. (:ily

"mayday,mayday..its PAYDAY today!!"

2009-02-24T18:09:00.000-08:00

iTs payday and im working PM today.
My PM shift collegues today = BORING GEDEGAKk!!
and suMmore today is BF 1st day off and im werking.
WTF.

Things that need to be done for this pay:
1. Give mom 300 bucks. KNN this is like every month. ):
2. Bills.
3. Cdc Top up.
4. Car rent.
5. Movie.
6. a Lil bit of Shopping here n there.
WALAHhh..!!

part away.

2009-02-21T23:01:00.000-08:00

somehow i just felt disappointed and left out.
eventhough we're just working next door..
its not that we never work together or share our problems before.
Why is it so hard for at least one of them to text me.
i was again disappointed when i heard their conversations..
Hell yeah!
"boyfriends" "bikes" "together"
SO??
why can't u just informed me n i be invited??
Becoz me and Khai doesnt have any transport?!!*tsk*
ouH whatever!!

Wait till one day...

Fickle Minded.

2009-02-21T06:43:00.000-08:00

it's been awhile i did go for a Holiday.
Though of going a short trip to Genting or Batam this coming March.
But..
For financial reason, we dicided to posepone.
We tink it better to save up n go to a long holiday @ a better places.
"but i still wanna go to Genting Theme Park ):"
haizz..

March plans:
me?
Continue my one and only last practical!! *jumping around*
i thought of buying a new QWERTY hp.
Shopping!! 1day trip to Batam??
i wanna go ~Zo0
applying Diners Club.

him?
enroll his license.
shopping also!!
applying Diners Club too.
*Kpo* hehe..
since everything almost the same, u wanna buy hp B?!*winks*

iLy.

Coincidence.

2009-02-19T06:13:00.000-08:00

So much of coincidence...
Attended this "okok~boring" service course.
Was so suprised that "his ex" were attending the same course as me.
*roll eyes* Damn!
Eventhough we don't know each other but still HIS EX LAH.
Feeling so awkward so i decided to get away, far from her.
I purposely sat different tables and went to different teams jus to get out of my sight.
But the more i get away from her, the more coincidence we get.
Met her in toilet, "diedie no way out" to do activities and games with her.
Bleerrh. BOPIAN!

Tomorrow back to normal working days.
Back to "alarrh boring nYerr" ward.
Two more days to my one pathatic day off.
STUPID. ):

Planning to go on a short trip this march.
Me & You
(:

Prayers.

2009-02-17T06:38:00.000-08:00

Dear God,
I noe that someone is out there..
The one that i suppose to share my whole life with.
And in time,
You will show him to me.
Will you...
Take care of him,
Comfort him,
And Protect him.
Until that day we'll meet.
Let him noe that my heart is beating with his.

listening.

2009-02-17T06:08:00.000-08:00

Happy 51th birthday , MaMa. (:

2009-02-12T08:09:00.000-08:00

11 feb 2009.

it was MOM's Birthday.

She's 51 year old already.

whaoo! old already..

but i STILL LOVE U.

Stay healthy and happy always.

Hatred.Despise.Dumbfuck.Coward

2009-02-07T23:42:00.000-08:00

I'm frustrated.
I'm angry.
I'm pissed.

Everything for you seem so unimportant.
You dun even care.
No iniative.
You're telling all sorts of reasons.
Still u blame me.

Ouh! Your such an ASSHOLE.

Now,
i dun need you.
i dun need your love.
i dun need your jokes.
i dun need your messages.
i dun need you to call me.
i dun need you for ANYTHING.

Your just nothing to me anymore.PERIOD!

Argh..

I hate you motherfucking coward.
Son of a frigging bitch.

I wish you'd get hit by a truck tommorow.
I wish you'd get run over by a train.
I wish I could cut off your balls,
fry them and feed them to you while
you lay there bleeding profusely.
I wish to slice you open in the chest,
break open your rib cage and tear your heart out
and wait till it stops beating.

"shower me with love loe"

2009-02-07T04:25:00.000-08:00

hello.

im at mac wif bf.

(: *laughing*

this title of mine "shower me with love", i took it from his long lost blog.

hahahaha!!

Khairul Amri got BLOG la sia!!

cant tell ya the blog lah due he's beside me now.

*giggles*

but roughly i can tell ya the blog is SUPER "love story".

kesian Khairul Amri kene bully dgn Izyan and still he said again and and over again "EYVILLE RAWKs"

huh? what crap.

"EYVILLE"? got their own hometown??

must do somthing!! Bomb it!! Massacre of EYVILLE = THE BLOODY SUNDAY.

hahahaha!!!

*disgusted*

ps: something ego boy dot blogspot dot com

0_0

2009-02-06T23:02:00.000-08:00

I slept for about 12 hours due to YESTERDAY.
NGeh!!
Had a bbQ picnic wif Love at eCp.
brought a mini bbQ set, some food to bbQ,tent,mat,sleeping bags,alots more.
:))
set the tent with the other group of camper.
heh. Looks like a mini Hdb flat.
sooo many tents!! hahaha!!
had candles in front of our tent.
ouH! beatiful :)
SPend the night listening to MJ12, love and laughter.
i Told ya, i wont miss hearing mj12.
(:
couldnt get to see the sunrise.
Cause i need to get to work later on. Hah!
yeah i noe its sound so stupid that rite after that i need to go to work.
hMph. what to to do. its my duty lahh..

i only felt sleepy after my work.
so Damn! i slept the whole FRIDAY nite till i missed my MJ12.
haha.
(:

ps: what's today plan uh love? iTs saturday LAH.

Time checked : 0810hr

2009-02-04T16:10:00.000-08:00

you'll be wondering why am i up so early. hah!
i woke up to get to work for the WRONG DAY.

WTF. *giggles*

so now i cant get back to sleep. hmph.

wrong information leads to BYEBYE plan for today.

Gosh.. how stupid can i be.

Right now im waiting for Bf to get up.

WAKE UP!!! im bored la sia.

For the past TWO days, MJ12 rated average. heh.

the dj played rather more songs than telling stories.

NGEhh!!

its okay~ MJ12 still my no.1

*winks*

Looking at my "leftover"

SHIT!! im short of dough for mom's bdae n Valentine.

should i postpone? or should i just u the leftover n leave with me nothing for my pocket money.

*thinking*.....................................

.total.bummer.

2009-02-03T07:43:00.000-08:00

Right now.. im waiting for MJ12 to start.
Like i say..my all time FAVOURITE radio programme.
(:
Today was so BORING.
i was at home all along~ surfing the net, watching tv, munching, sleeping.
nothing. Totally nothing to do.
:
Tmr! cant wait.
hopefully this time it would be better eventhough its been a long tyme.

Gdnite.

Super long rest day (:

2009-02-02T03:10:00.000-08:00

Starting of the week with a big smile and a positive mind..
Had done things dat should be done. *jumping around*
yeah!yeah!yeah!
went to cdc early in the morning ALONE. thx to him..hmph.
renew my so long tyme pdl n book my practical.
OUH good! it on weds. BF first day off. (: ehem.. paham2 ajer la eh KHAIRUL AMRI.*giggles*
He picked me up at cdc and off for a breakfast at "not so sedap" malay stall near my house.
i was so eager to get my face clean later on.
YES!! its facial time for me and mom.
it was my so very ferst tyme..."jakon" la!!
the face massage was super cooling, relaxing and nice. SUPERB.!!
but the next thing was a hell for me. getting rid of my white heads n dirtyyellow thingy in my pores.
The pain was unbearable!!
Teary eyes.Shaking legs.Hand grabbing the pillow so tight.
She tried to make me laugh and was saying that it will be finishing soonn.
: NO!!! the finishing soon was like another 30mins later. WTF.
EVerthing ended like 2hr30mins.
Bf was like "MANGKOK" but guess he was pretending he was okay coz my mom was dere.*laughing*
Went to a salon to treatment my hair but it SUCKs! no diff. my hair still feels like it dying. NGEH!!
*brrrh*
ANY RECOMMENDATION FOR GOOD N CHEAP SALON??

post-misteri jam 12.

2009-01-30T10:37:00.000-08:00

just ended listening to MJ12.

My all time fav. radio programme. (:

"KC" was talking about a misterious pics n told the rest to look up in the net.

so.. i was freaking curious and when i was about to see, heard some of them commented that they regret to see the pic. Ngeh. soo.. i decide not. HEEE!

im scared la sia!!

Now im just browsing the net while bf and chacha is sleeping.

BrrHh.. *Tak boleh harap la Lu CHEETAH*

went to this website about how ur baby looks like.

haha! so funny. my baby looks so negro. Ngeh..!!

Night Shift [Day 2]

2009-01-27T12:46:00.000-08:00

2nd nite was average buzy.
but still. i dun like it. hmph.
had two admission plus many callbells!
brrrhh..
ouhh.. please get on wif my 3rd nite smoothly n PEACEFULLY.
i cant for my long day off next week!!
(:

ps: i wanna spent time wif bf lah. *xoxo*

big smile :D

2009-01-27T12:22:00.000-08:00

ouh. superb.

im in love with Fino.

For more POWER pics.

Link it.

http://motorcycle-thai.blogspot.com/2008/12/yamaha-fino-off-road-2.html

dreaming

2009-01-27T01:06:00.000-08:00

Gilera Runner 180 Sp

Summary
Category : SCOOTER & AUTOMATIC
Price : SGD$1,800
Engine size : 201 - 400cc
Starter : electric
Year of manufacture : 2001
Condition : Used
Availability : Available

Yahama Fino 115

Summary
Category : SCOOTER & AUTOMATIC
Price : On Request
Engine size : Below 200cc
Starter : electric and kick
Year of manufacture : 2008

Technical Specifications
Engine Type : Air-cooled 4-stroke, single cylinder, SOHC
Displacement : 113.7cc
Max. Power Output : 5.8 kW @ 8,000rpm
Max. Torque : 7.4 Nm @ 6,500rpm
Fuel Tank Capacity : 4.1 litres
Transmission Type : Automatic, V-belt
Dry Weight : 91kg

Night Shift [Day 1]

2009-01-26T12:47:00.000-08:00

Had a smooth night.
(:
Total patient is 7.
Admitted 1 patient.
still. its okay.
if all the days were jus like this.
i'll be in heaven. ("
Doing my 6am para soon.
2 more days to go..

Alhamdulilah.

What's up next?

2009-01-26T00:01:00.000-08:00

Here are my list that needs to be done.

1. Renew my PDL
2. Book my practical.
3. Sell my Sony Ericsson to my uncle.
4. Buying Nokia ??? Hp.
5. Going Facial.
6. Treatment hair.
7. Mom's birthday gift.
8. Jeans or Pants
9. Lots of Tops.
10. DIET!! (:

Once upon a time..

2009-01-20T08:50:00.000-08:00

The stories we tell are the stuff of dreams.
Fairy tales don't come true.
We all remember the bed time stories of our childhood.
The shoe fit Cinderella, the frog was turned into a prince, sleeping beauty was awakened with a kiss.
Once upon a time and then they lived happily ever after.
Fairy tales.
The stuff of dreams.
the problem is, fairy tales don't come true.
It's the other side of the stories.
The ones that start in dark and stormy nights and end in the unspeakable.
The nightmares always seem to become the reality.
Sometimes it's not good to have expectations.
With expectations comes hope, with hope comes failure.
With failure comes disappointment.
And when you're disappointed, you either end up blaming yourself or your patner for not being able to make things right or to see it coming.
And in the end, you get hurt.

listening : Misteri Jam 12

2009-01-19T07:38:00.000-08:00

updates!!
recently.. hmm... NOTHING SPECIAL.
had only 1 freaking day off for last week so had to werk the whole week after dat.
ISK! so tired. :
but it worth the day after my shift. (: went out wif Bf.
its been a long time i went arab street for sheesha so he did fulfilled it.
thx bf.!! had much fun.
went back home and get pissed. BRRhh!!
my aunts and my mom were sleeping in my room. HMPH.
they've taken the pillows , blanket , tilam n everything.
left wif me and the floor. Tsk.
slept at living room feeling so cold and so UNCOMFORTABLE.

Sunday = Biase jugak. FAMILY DAY.
ehem. Brrh. (:

i hate working on Monday.
its always been buzy on Monday.
maybe dats why people used the term "MONDAY BLUES"
i really had a hell of admissions. all the freaking lodgers..
so i didnt even get to go for my break. heh. diet lah konon. (:
the irritating part is the STUPID aunty who werk at the 7eleven was so freaking dumb! i left wif only 10 bucks to survive so i've decided to top up my ezlink for 5 bucks n tot i could buy some food with the left over pocket money BUT she did top up all of tat 10 bucks! such an asshole. *roll eyes*

LOOKING FORWARD FOR MY RESTING DAY AND MY PAY DAY.

passed. :)

2009-01-13T06:48:00.000-08:00

It's worth the study at ecp after work with BF. (:
Thx B for the tips!!
So.. i did studied only the day before my test.
YaYa.. Bf having the face (Cfm i fail again) after he gets to noe the last minute study i had. *BrRrhh*

TEST DAY.
I was all nervous n stress out. Mind went blank bLang BLerKz!!
Bf was dere comforting me and so i had a kiss from him before i went to the test room. *teehee*
Sat in front of the screen n chant everything that i knew and what Bf taught me.
i put away the feeling of fear n just do my best.
The bad news was only a few questions was related with what i studied. The rest was like WHATTHEFUCK!! 0_o
Having to review back what i've answered, so i decided to press *End Test*
i was all prepared to see FAILED on that screen but i saw PASSEd instead. *YEAAH*

Alhamdulilah.

So what's next??
Gonna do my pdL n continue my practical!!
Hopefully i will pass A.S.A.P
(:

ps : Bf!! thx for the tips u told me n comforting me thru out my test.
Much appreciated.
Biler nk enroll?? (:
i love u, very much.

Ladies.

2009-01-09T09:49:00.000-08:00

Life's a bitch ladies. The problem with us is that we care too much. We love too much. We fight so hard. We hope so much and in the end we are the ones that get hurt. All we have to do is just learn. We learn to adapt. We learn to be versatile. We learn to be strong. We learn not to stumble. We learn to stand up on our own two feet. We learn that we are independant. We learn that not everything can be fixed. We also learn that somethings are meant to stay broken. We learn to mend our own hearts and we learn how to protect it from harm. We learn to listen to our heads and not our hearts. Because it is our heads that is full of logic whereas our hearts are ruled by emotions and is known to be reckless.

dayoff.

2009-01-09T05:32:00.000-08:00

My dayOff was unplanned. Met bf after Friday's prayer n jus slack sumwhere. *BrrRh* So.. i took some pictures. UPLOADEd!
Bf need to be back home early. As usual......... dun wanna mention it. *roll eyes*
Here me now at home.. MOOD : pissed.Boring. 0_o

2nd Night.

2009-01-06T10:32:00.000-08:00

Finish up stuff that suppose to be done.
Now im bloogin in peacefully and hopefully it will continue to be like this till the end of my shift.
And!! not forget my 3rd nite too.. * crossing finger.
1st nite was really busy! really!
get fed up up wif this lau apek n nyonya. *showing middle finger*
wats wrong wif ur ***** cant stop peeing??!!
stop drinking la APEK!! u pee too much!!
OVERALL : im still afraid doing night shift. ghost? ABOHDEn!!

ps: i miss bf. heh.
:)

Kanak-kanak riang @ threeoneone

2009-01-05T03:03:00.000-08:00

Kanak-kanak riang pt2 was the best video taken. Aren had the most expression and space. Ayesha had the most crazy dialogs. Syikin was trying to fit in the video despite aren n ayesha keep moving their big head.*laughing* Azri was like all mute. Me.. with the big eyes n far apart eyebrows. Its was crazy n hilarious.

missed.

2009-01-04T08:32:00.000-08:00

Been missing the girls. [ Ayesha , Nadia , Farina , Fana , Syikin ]
I miss....
when we get to slack at threeoneone everyday @ 8pm till morning.
the gossip we had.
the game we played. truth or dare. taitee. love game. R.O.C.K rock!!
sharing ghost stories with them until we were scared to go back home.
the time we went to club where everyone get their belangkas.
the lies we had to the boys. (: SLurp!!
going recce. we'll be holding each other so tight n close. ayesha will alwaes be pissed wif me. haha! aren will be the noisy one. nana will be wif nad all the way. syikin will be right behind. khai will be the last person n whenever we turn back quickly, khai is still the last person. hah!!
the karaoke session we had.
the 2dollar burger we ate everyday.
riding the bike with ayesha n aren.
the macrichie moments. we were stuck in the forest for like 4-5 hours.
getting in trouble. SAMAN!! 200 bucks each while waiting for ayesha @ simei mrt.
the picnic we had at eastcoast.
the song we sang. "no one" for suhairi "clumsy" for nana "AYO" for me. *hee
the time in attachment. alot of fun esp @ IMH.
Those times were really treasured. *one minute of silence* 0_o
If only i could turn back time..............

Hate.

2009-01-03T09:17:00.000-08:00

Everyone having own plans.
And me? On annual leave. On Saturday nite..
Im stuck at home , nothing to do AND im fucking hungry.
No one cares espcially BF. urgHh!!

Had arguments.
i got jealous with the things he does.
He gets to ride and he had great siblings plus cousins.
i got really pissed after he told me that his cousin called him "kepala nonok"
WTF!! He is my fucking BOYFRIEND.
Is it so fucking wrong to spend my time with him??
He tried to pleased me n his cousin(S) by dividing his time.
OUHh WATever... now, you can spent all the time you want with them cause i dont give a FUCK.

GoodNight.